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life has been going on as usually around these parts and yeah.... i'm not that interesting.

since the last update, i've still been looking for a gig and temping to supplement the income. last week i had THREE interviews. the tues. jawn was bogus. those ppl weren't really hiring. D suggested they weren't really hiring *me* b/c Koreans don't like black people. i don't think that's true. it seems that all the groups i've met here shares the belief that Koreans are racists... even the whites! some of my ex co-workers used to get pissed when shopping in their stores "they're acting as if i'm going to steal something." i laugh. try being BLACK.

one interview 2: i had one with the writer and producer of Soul Plane. he needed an assistant. the pay was shit but i thought i could learn abt producing my own projects. he has an office out o his guest house in hollywood that's kinda quiet and peaceful. not my ideal environment, but it was a potential job and i'm malleable. he totally didn't hire me... but then he said he'd keep an ear out for other potential jobs on my behalf. the thing is.. when ppl don't hire you, how come they think they can push you off on their other friends? if i'm not good enough for you, what makes you think your friend wants to pay me?

so yeah... interview 3 was at __________ i can't tell ya'll yet. i don't have it and i'm not trying to jinx it. i can say it's on one of the studio lots in an office i'd kill to get into... and really, it's the second best position i've interviewed for since being here. i want it so bad i can taste it. they interviewed me for a second and third time on tuesday and sent me to HR for a background check. i'm due to hear back either way by COB friday. wish me luck my people.

in other news: sherman hit a car. my sister called and was/is pissed at me. i felt guilty and then got over it. pretty soon, i'll be independent. completely.

what else, i had a brush with a near jealous rage. yeah.. it's weird. i can't explain it... i could but i won't. anyways, i didn't rage and all is well. it's like i've made peace with my trust. at the end of the day, i trust him completely.

i met sorors in the area... that's an entirely different posting. i'll be back.

i'm lazy... well not really

usually when i'm at a computer, i have limited time. the library only gives an hour... and i need to be job hunting for the hour... sorry ya'll.

sean's in town and i'm so happy. we haven't done much... but laze around and explore melrose. we def need to hang out sans the man this week. i hate when i visit friends and their mates are with us evvery second... so i'm going to try not to be that friend. i know he came to visit me and i appreciate that... plus, by brought me a gallon of Dr. Bronners almond soap. that made my fucking weekend. i love that soap.

this week, i'm temping at a different Disney office. it's.... ok. rather quiet and boring, but i'm happy to be working.

did i tell you? i made my first non-internet friends in LA. i met them through my bestfriend's new g/f. anna and chris. a couple and former brooklynites. they live kind of close to us and were the first folks to hang out at our crib. it's nice. i think we may be starting to build a bit of a community. sherms may not agree b/c he's used to all black communities... but this is the begining. my boy jonny lives around the way too... so i'm going to try to start getting up with him more often. it's hard in this town.

this weekend, i've recommitted myself to being here and making things work out. i'm going to *really* get my hustle on. this is a tough town... and to be fair, all my NY jobs were kind of handed to me. now, i know whatever happens here is from sheer will and determination. i keep telling the man that one day we'll look back on the days when we entertained and all our guests sat on the floor and smile about the struggles. see, i was having one of those idealistic moments about struggle. what i'm trying to keep in mind is the impermanence of it all. it won't last. it can't. even now, in the midst of it, i'm learning to appreciate it. learning to understand that i'm evolving while in the struggle and that's good.

saturday we found this place in crenshaw that makes vegan chicken sandwiches for half the price of our normal place AND they taste better. we fell in love. nothing like food to brighten up a day.

can i just say, i love my boyfriend. for all of our disagreements and back and forth and ups and downs... i love him. he teaches me something every day and i appreciate that. he pushes my buttons in a way that makes me better even if i'm resenting him in the moment... and he looks out for me. i can't get any softer in this blog...