i'm lazy... well not really

usually when i'm at a computer, i have limited time. the library only gives an hour... and i need to be job hunting for the hour... sorry ya'll.

sean's in town and i'm so happy. we haven't done much... but laze around and explore melrose. we def need to hang out sans the man this week. i hate when i visit friends and their mates are with us evvery second... so i'm going to try not to be that friend. i know he came to visit me and i appreciate that... plus, by brought me a gallon of Dr. Bronners almond soap. that made my fucking weekend. i love that soap.

this week, i'm temping at a different Disney office. it's.... ok. rather quiet and boring, but i'm happy to be working.

did i tell you? i made my first non-internet friends in LA. i met them through my bestfriend's new g/f. anna and chris. a couple and former brooklynites. they live kind of close to us and were the first folks to hang out at our crib. it's nice. i think we may be starting to build a bit of a community. sherms may not agree b/c he's used to all black communities... but this is the begining. my boy jonny lives around the way too... so i'm going to try to start getting up with him more often. it's hard in this town.

this weekend, i've recommitted myself to being here and making things work out. i'm going to *really* get my hustle on. this is a tough town... and to be fair, all my NY jobs were kind of handed to me. now, i know whatever happens here is from sheer will and determination. i keep telling the man that one day we'll look back on the days when we entertained and all our guests sat on the floor and smile about the struggles. see, i was having one of those idealistic moments about struggle. what i'm trying to keep in mind is the impermanence of it all. it won't last. it can't. even now, in the midst of it, i'm learning to appreciate it. learning to understand that i'm evolving while in the struggle and that's good.

saturday we found this place in crenshaw that makes vegan chicken sandwiches for half the price of our normal place AND they taste better. we fell in love. nothing like food to brighten up a day.

can i just say, i love my boyfriend. for all of our disagreements and back and forth and ups and downs... i love him. he teaches me something every day and i appreciate that. he pushes my buttons in a way that makes me better even if i'm resenting him in the moment... and he looks out for me. i can't get any softer in this blog...