i apologized to someone today.

up until recently, i hadn't kown that i'd hurt his feelings.
even though i ususally dislike people and don't care what they think,
i've made a decision to try.

i've been reading up on buddhism and the core concept is compassion.
so in the spirit of that, i'm going to work on it.
even when i get pissy and angry and hate everyone (see last entry)
i'm going to calm down and act rationally.
the rational thing was... be nice.
i added that to the list of my q4 goals.

what's poppin?
i'm *still* hunting for a job.
it's hard to get a non-industry joint too.
everyone thinks i'll leave as soon as i'm offered something else.
they have every right to think that.
i will
i want to make it in this industry.
damnnit.

i still need a job though...
i'm about to be an audience sitter in a minute.