apparently people i know have been finding my blog....
i don't know how i feel about that.
how am i supposed to write freely with people reading it?
ok... jokes.

sherms says that i'm mean.
i see things (mostly unfortunate looking people)
and want to comment.
gene and i used to comment with such regularity that it never seemed wrong
all of a sudden, i find myself living with a buddhist
who dislikes my "evil" behavior.
it's not just him either.... other people think i'm mean.
secretly... i don't care.
i like being mean and bitchy and nasty.
i mean....
you're 250 pounds and you're wearing a thong bikini and i'm supposed to do what?
ugl... i mean unfortunate looking people are just too much
it's not just that they're ugl... unfortunate looking
it's usually something else that sets my mind to cut them down.
maybe i really am a catty bitch.
but i like it better in new york
i like to have frineds who will walk the streets and laugh at other people with me.
last night, i finally found that friend in koku
there was a woman with an afro... that wasn't quite right.
something about it was just wrong.
in the spirit of verbal restraint, i held my tongue.
once i went out with some sorors and talked about a group of people so badly, everyone thought i was some hell spawned bitch...
so i look at the offensive afro and then at koku.
people like me do this all the time.
it's code for: did you see that? and an invitation to bash the offensive image.
koku started in.
i was so happy
i think it's probably wrong to be hapy that other people talk badly of strangers.
but i was fucking relieved.
we bashed the afro by disguising our remarks as speculation for the cause of it's violently offputting stylings
sadly, the moment was more satisfying than krs-1 freesyling on stage for 30 mins....

i'm not a hip-hop head.... who am i fooling?
i don't know all the lyrics to tribe songs.
i don't know what year albums came out in.
i don't get why biggie was the greatest rapper of all time.
i just hang with the hip hop junkies.....
the musically pretentious
i'm one of the people jack black's character would have spit on in High Fidelity....
worse b/c i've perpretrated before....

in LA, hip-hop... especially underground hip-hop
belongs to the whites and asians.
they don't go out to dance.
they go out to stare at their favorite dj's and break dance.
to be honest, la's nightlife SUCKS.
last night i wanted to go home.
i thought about learning something completely new.... some skill i can transfer to another city.....
this morning, i came to my senses.